Sauve-moi

if only i can put myself in this blog instead just my words.

I wanna get out of here so badly as i running out of my mind.

Somewhere i don't know. Somewhere don't hold any meaning. Somewhere without any memories.

I just can't stand of doing what i should do, suppose to do and what is right or wrong.

I want throw away my duty. I want be free...

The urge of get away from all...

Quit being in a job post. Quit being someone girlfriend. Quite being a daughter.

I just want break all free, pack and go. Leave all behind. I don't want anything anymore.

I Just can't carry on anymore.

No matter how i tell myself to stay positive. How i pray daily fr strength.

There is just something somewhere inside me had died.

Maybe all i ever need is myself.

Is not about the happiness i could find.

Is not about anything.

Maybe i not ready for anything.

Maybe i misheard lord calling.

Maybe just maybe...

Lord i just so tired.

I tired of smiling. Tired of caring. Tired of doing. Tired of being what i am now?

I want a break through. I wanna break free.

I want to listen to breeze, breath the crisp air. Enjoy the coldness that froze from outside till within.