The thoughts of you arose so much that is overflowing.
So does the tears...
I suck in remembering the bad stuffs. I only kept good memories which doesn't help to make a person to move on any easier.
Today, i looks through the camera albums which i transfer out from my mobile.
As i scroll, i see you & me. Our families & friends...Those moments....
I also happened chance upon photo taken at the period you hurt me real bad.
I seating by the river drink a can of beer trying to think things through..
Photo of you left without a word & when i see Olaf balloon in the mall remind me of us.
As i scroll..... There's lovie~
How i met lovie, what we done till now. How we change my life around to positive.
Yes i remembers now.
I told myself right at that moment.
No Xing Yi!
Yes yoU!
yoU r beautiful like what lovie telling you everyday every night.
yoU r his beautiful meow meow.
I'm beautiful.
I not an ugly soul that deserve to be hurt.
I not an ugly soul to be yell at & be broken.
I not an ugly soul when i bond my life with Jesus.
I not an ugly soul whom should feels bad about myself and guilt over a relationship failed.
I not an ugly soul whom didn't try hard enough, in fact I'm a beautiful soul whom loves more then i could and try very very very hard in relationship.
I'm a beautiful soul whom deserve to be loved and to hear beautiful words of praises.
Lovie Mummy given me a new name, 杏怡.
She wants me to break away from the shell of "心结".
Which is always been in back of mind to change a new name.
One day this knot in my heart will be free.
I will one day be free from all this hurts, memories, blames & all.
I will one day overcome all this.
Lovie will see me through...
Be sad when i am sad.
Rejoice when i am in joy.
Protect me from anger demons( include ppls ard)
Anxious over my carelessness & clumsy.
Jia you Jia you.
yoU can do it despite all.
It just a phrase once this is through yoU will be truly happy again!
God bless all broken souls.
P.S. Thanks you Lovie Gif Gif!!
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