Birthday...

Dear blog,

Tuesday will be my lunar birthday~
It brings me flashback of Me & A quarreling cause he kinda of forgotten and said to me that he didn't know it matters that much to me.
This year, whenever i think of birthday.. all i can think of is 27, 28 & 29.
What am i going to tell dad when he wishes him.
How happy & unhappy we once was.

Growing up birthday never be a joyful events ever since my sisters is born....

I'm the forgotten...

Spending year after years of birthday alone...

Dealing with break up on birthday....

Even 21 birthday i wasn't left alone from heartache as the gift of the year.

Wake me up when September end- Green day is a nice song to sum it up all...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I am blissful now overall. I got someone there for me & loves me....
Bring me nice home-cooked food.
Someone whom will try to cheer me up acting silly....
Someone whom will wear glasses just to see me clearly from a distance.
Someone will keep massage me till i say stop.
Someone whom will not complaint about a thing he done for me.
Someone will...............

I don't know what to write or say...

Is like a huge huge snowball rolling downhill inside me...

There's a pain i cant ease.

Much flashback i can't cease.

I just much relieved when i asked ZX....
This such blissful joy we having now, is it just a phrase like everyone always say... just a honeymoon phrase....

He replied, " If i'm willingly...let's go."

Meaning.....As long i willingly to let this loves of us continue this way.. he will try his utmost best to keep this joy going? ( i think that's what he meant)

I only can time to time tell myself.... "HEY YOU! Stop thinking rubbish!!"

Oh well.................

Don't know what to write....

I just gonna end here and tell myself stop having this feeling of all..

Goodnight world...

For those whom are hurts, grieve and in pain... Hold on and Jia you(buck up)

I believe one day... someday it all will get betters...

Daddy god bless those whom soul are broken...

Love's,
Yuii