Before it turn me insane, i got to turn into words..

I dont know how to live a life anymore.

I dont know how to be a "regular" this nationality girl.

I sick of, restart of dating days.

Who wrote the rules of couples should stay apart till they get marry so it will better for both person?

I could tell you the person whom create this statement is just some selfish person whom finding excuses to get away but not having enough courage to deal with the real problems and move on.

What with the restriction of girlfriend staying over weekend?

What's with the is going be midnight and you need to leave?

Why i have a schedule to stick by in a relationship?

You got to live with the person you thought u loves most.

Cause it only get serious when that happens.

You see all the habits of one person and all the attitude of oneself.

If you cant even deal with that then how to stay in a marriage till the end of time(if that what u call?)

Getting marry is cheap yet getting divorce here is time consuming and expensive with all the lawyer fees.

So think twice.

I detest all this shit i got myself in to..

I used be carefree.

I can go out with anyone i want, no need worry about the aftermath drama and jealousy.

I just a girl that cant deal with another girl drama so i got more boys to hang out with.

It just make life so much easier and is harder to find a gay guy as best sister here, it simply nt that common here so yup.

Now i got up all serious and give that one person the status he want. The assurance he want. My flock of friends got to keep that distance. End of day i all alone.

So now it seem like over demanding and needy for the time of that one person.

But having that one person is all the drama.

I sick and tired of relationship.

I on my way to get settle down and having a house to live comfortably.

Yet i caught off guard by what is call : love.

Yeahx... Now end up with all this bullshit again...

Seriously.....