Nites~

I just felt jotting down bits and puzzle of my life now.

Too much being going on, there is tears of sadness and happpiness.

Lesson that i learn and being more grateful then ever...

Maybe getting old, alot of things also too tired to fight against it.

Just wish for peace in life. Don really wan ask for much things...

I nw as a student care teacher, life been more challenging then ever.

I pray and somehow i unassure isit god told me to do so. I only knw i will try my very best to work it out.

Nobody knw why i wanted to work this job. Bt nobody care enough to ask...

Bt journal, the reason why is because i wanted to do something meaningful and give back to the society esp the lord. Child is god gift then helping child who needed extra care and love is what god wanted aint?

I nw like fighting against myself reaching over my limit to get things settle dw.. First day i already taken over the class and the previous teacher already almost given up and didnt really care much as i felt so.

God bless me ur wisdom and help me along my way.

Nw after work i just dont felt like spoke another word as i'm totaly exhausted after class.

Oh dear lord, i fall upon you and i know you will be there holding me.(No doubt)

Guess i just need be more humble and much more content about things given to me ba..

Growing old meaning being much content and overlook hopes and wishes.

I dono... I dono sometime i jus so contradicting. But who knew deep inside i am always fighting against myself and trying my best? Who seem the worst of me and loved me and comfort me deep within? Who is selfless and dont compare even i did? Once there is a mummy told me, no one can give u the love u need, only lord. Till now i always remember.

Walk through alll this year although ppls say i still at my young age but not sure why i just felt this old exhausted feeling in heart. 

Lord no worries. I always remember u ask me to forgive other as how u forgive me and my fellow bro and sis.

Being more content. No worries i will try my very best not to be greedy and fight against like a ignorant child. As i want you father to be proud of me.


Amen.


Gdnight father. Gd night Jesus. Gd night everyone.