Yui.....

Hey bloggie~

Sometime when life hit the rock and often i will come to you and talk about it...

But dont know when.... even i dont love talking...

When things hit me, upset me or hurtful.... I jus rather un-spoke and dwell in it.... Shed a few tears and get over it later....

But dono why each times i need longer times to pull it through....

Or there isnt any recovery?

I am empty, hollow and shatter.... No words to describe how i felt. No word to say how lost i am...

I just keep moving forward even i don really know where i heading to....

I glad god gave me someone in life... To help me alittle, feed me alittle and all small little rely here and there.

But is not easy for me....


Wat is dream? Wat is meaning? When is shattered all over again and again... Hw close will i wanna stand right beside of it??

What i want??? Ppl keep asking me... Begging me to tell.... I wished i could tell them right away...

But the deeper i look inside the more hollow i seen myself... I dono how to reply...


I need u oh lord to guide me, to hold me and loved me...

Cause i knw no one could but you lord...

You nv question me and nv pressure me...Do send me help on my way... Do loved me endlessly and un-selfishly...

Right now i felt like 3 years back... pouring and put every hurt in here...

Oh lord just give me a sign.... Jus guide me through... I promise i will do it...

I felt so lost.... I felt soo hurtful... I barely could breath,,,,

It hav nthing to do with anyone, is my life and i got to figure something... Bt lord where am i heading to...

is really been awhile, since i shed this much.....

Guess i jus alittle tired...

Gd night father, gd night all my love one....

P.S. if one day i barely hanging on, please forgive me...