I want you all to know~

Life been great. I should start saying life is great when ppl ask me how am i doing.

Being postive is the only key to live happy life aint?

I need set goal and rules in life and work towards it.

Now days i out of jobs and reason for it, i dont wish to say. But only thing i could say is even i gave up job or sacrifice something, sometime something or some bonds still cant mend it back or u cant hold it back. In short, is a pointless thing. What meant to be will meant to be.

Maybe is a good things as we tear apart. God show me the ugly truth but want me to face it and stop being someone that live within a lie when i thought that the person might me my truthfulness friend.

I miss you my dear friend. Never forget how we bump to each other when in secondary school.

Also, cause of you and i met someone could make me move on my life and be happy with. I cant have time machine to rewind time and to choose the location and reason of how me and special friend met. So i only could be thanksful through you.

It hurt now~ It wont be mine as i know. But through all is alright. As i still thanksful for those happy times i got with that special friend of mine.

No one could ever make me realise happy could be that simple.

I will slowly move on. As i remember my special friend say before, "i can be here but i cant help you, you got to move on yourself. For now i here, you dont have to worry."

I not sure special friend still here anot, but as times goes by it will show~

Special friend always stay in heart with me. Special friend walk with me times that i couldnt even knw how to carry on.

Special friend always will be special even we dont contact at all. A part of me will stay in those times special friend pull me through.

When anytime i dull again, who knows this memories i could use it and be strong again?

I miss my special friends but is time for me to get a life on my own and be a big girl now as my special friend said knw i a big girl now and take care my own aint?

Now i got a few things i wanted to do.

Now days i making use of my times as break time, I go out walk walk my own~ Have some air, find myself back.

Got couple of job interview to go~

Now i only want, eat, pray and be loved stay happy.

Not easy but i will try.

I want to be brave and be alittle stronger~

I will write a to- do list.

- Go swimmin once every week or twice.
- Must go church once every week or max twice.
-When things more settle, i want go bible study.
-When got job and more stable, i will just go take piano lesson.
-Set rules for mum to let her take care herself.
-Set rules for mum so i got enough to go after my dream.
-Stay happy each day, love each day and never regret.
-Save enough buy a electro piano.

Most of all, I want save alot now to go out stay.

I got this plan in me, But i also got this plan with me but i want do it with someone whom wanna stay out too.
My special friend once say wanna move out. I wish i could help, like ask my special friend open a bank acc save like bits of it pay inside. And once we rdy we can rent a 3 room flats and gt 2 rooms to stay together aint it be just nice? As special friend always silly, use all his money to help friends and so.

Life aint going anywhere like this if my special friend keep do so. Oh god.

But is okay, as all i could do and help i had already done. Hope my prayer will answer and god always be with my special friends give wisdom and guide my special friend through.

Now i got to furfil my life and be strong.

Take care my special friend.

Take care for those who once in my life and left.

I wish u all the very best.

Thanks for each memories you all gave despite pain or happy.

As i thanksful you all teach me what life is and walk with me one small part of it.

God bless you all~

P.S. Special friend is whom, you all no need know. Also i seldom post about somebody or someone as i dont want have misunderstanding or conflict. But as i say dont make wishful thinking as i wont say much more of what u seeing here. Respect is the word here.

Signing off,
Aka Yui.