Just got to stand up again.. As times dont wait.

Oh hey diary,

I was feeling alittle dull but i fine now.

Heal faster then i thought. Lols. Think cause god with me and i been praying each small little thing. Even like hey Jesus today sky alittle blue and i feeling blue but i know i all good with u leading me and amen. That simple.

I been talking to my soul, finding the Christ within me, having the strength from within and try not to believe any other things.

Is kinda of upset, when i needed someone now and no one there. So i only can pray within and wait for Christ to show me the way and say, hey you are god creation and u are loved and never give up.

Was feeling dull, now was quite alright. Just tell myself i got to buck up and like work harder... So later i make up my mind, i going see doc and see i could get better. I going out on my own and walk walk and had alittle of fresh air....

Sometime the more u look upon on something esp a person, the greater the disappointment it is. Despite is friends, family or so. Just think as times goes by i will survive on my own. I dont needed anyone to show me much care and i could be fine... Is alittle bore and mono tone living alone but who know i might be just fine. As i know the love i give out will never got anything in return. Give all out my love tank empty and no one fill in just silly. I also will find times go see can find any orphans house need volunteer work anot. As i know the right place to put my love is there. Show them love and concern when no one will. Who knw they might thanks and remember u a lifetime? Now is time for me buck up again...Oya i loose my job. But is ok i dont think it suit me either... Now go find something else to do... I okay...

God u with me all times right?

That's good enough....

Love all those that been there for me, love all those that stumble me down and love all whatever it comes. Without those good and bad, i wont be who i am now...

P.S. I wish all my friends and dearest one's happy,healthy and all the very best...