I lost but i wont shown.

I have no clue of the complicated and confusion feelings i had in me.

I cried much ytd, due to unfairness, stress and everything.

I leaving it all behind once more and again n again.

As i only could leave those problems behind since i couldnt leave him.

The way he glare at me at night, the way he holded me for a moment i soo assure that is not the andy i know.

The cold heartless glare. The way it looked me and spoke to me. It seem unbelievable if i say that moment he seem like another person whom spoke to me,like a evil kinda of person.

The grine, the eyes and everything. I dono, but i wanted to hold him still and thoughts maybe that everything will be alright and he will be back to the andy with feelings.

I dont know, for a moment i like out of fuse. I dont know and i lost.

I just a human, a normal girl. I wanted someone to love and be loved.

Why i must gone through so much and i still repeating it again. Why it cant be at ease...

I dont know wat to do. This moment he act like this and i followed. That moment he angry piss off pushed me off and i shall obey. Next moment he comes back to me and he wanted love and i need to change back to everything alright and be loving. The paces is getting far too fast now. He mood swing he soo much that i felt i spinning clueless and adapt to him and i felt so lost and confused.

But i cant let it go as i love him with all my heart and each breath.

I cant let him go as it kills me in all ways if i do so...

But i couldnt breath....

God save me. remove the evil thoughts and acts. Bless us. I knw only u can protect us against evil, Only you could love endlessly. God hold me.


I only could close my eyes and pray upon.