no one knw hw pain it is when i hided it soo well..

o dear diary, i back to u once more.

how bad could it be? When i lost grandma, keys?, bro and him?

since i lost soo much this year, guess it wont be anymore bad then this?

Bt this time felt so diff.. it felt like i really heart wrenchin and nv loved again..

i been giving in to his attiuded his foul mouth for far soo long..

been convince myself that all he do he meant to be the one.

I try so hard, bt too hard that it break..

i couldnt slp at night. wake up early like 5 in mornin dono wat to do..

typin in dark mumblin to u...

life still need to goes on aint?

this time i carry on my life without anyone. jus me myself. let see hw far could i go~

Guess he will be far more better without me..

Frm wat his cold heart emotionless attiude i knw he will be more fine then me..

as he say girls more sentimental..

Why will i in the first placed believe him? and let him in? when i knw who he already is? seriously i dont knw..

my bad i guess.. is i believe,loved and give him the way in my life.

haiz...