.........

Now adays here and then, i ask myself.

How does it feel.

What should it feel like.....in everything.....

Today i took a stroll at the small path perhaps it called "a park beside drain?"

I not sure why the sudden of him walking away non do i know the sudden of silent and coldness...

But sudden when he say wanna send me home, that moment i just felt he wanna send me home badly and he totally forgotten i never had my dinner and my mum never cook.

Thought the plan of walking at pasa malam still on...

Just the naive me.

I dont know what on? So i asking him back home and took a stroll at the place which bring much memories in past.

The path of memories, beside the drain fence, he hugged me and say if he got me he never let me goes...

The memories of walking out to have a simple dinner with a family once give me much warms...

Memories of the sunset when we walking back from train station...That grass field with the beautiful skyline of sunset and he told me his dreams of wanting to be a photographer....

Memories at pool side with his family~

The first time i went over to find him and i knw in him there is a kind of grieve that hidden deep down.

The first dinner at his home...

Last but not least, the day i left that place.

Those kind of feelings in me and tears i shed that moment when the car engine start.

Thought is the end of everything.

But lk back.... awwww.... is soo nostalgic.... this love still around and fighting to survive...

Things we both done to survive for sooo long...

Ppl that we gave up...Friends,family and most of all that is being who we use to be.

It might not be the best....but think back...everyone will think.."what if".....

I not sure whats wrong....But i only could let times show it own ways...

Although there is a saying of... everything is needed to be archive of but....what things i not yet done?

I wish i was the warm breeze at the ocean...When ppl need a warm embrace and i could be there just in times.. But at times i could be around and carefree...


Times had passed me by for soo many years... but dreams and wishes still far away~

P.S.The moment u left me behind alone and cross the street, is the moment u break my heart again.