I TURING CRAZY~

Dear diary,

i know is how unfair i am to you.

As when there is problem and sorrow i come upon you and nv share much joy with you.

And i leaving u to take all my pain...

This time let me be selfish again ba..

I hate being in love with someone.

As being in love is equal to being needy...

I DONT WANT BE WEAK, I DONT WANT FEEL THIS WAY.

I JUST HATE MYSELF.

I being soo NEEDY NOW ESP WHEN I FREAKING SICK.

Wanting him be there to comfort to care to empathy to take care of me.

Without love or having someone in heart, what i will do is.

Fk it sickness and head to bed and shut everybody off and being lazy around the com whole day.

Dont care sick anot, as die nobody care either..

In love i couldnt think of that way, i will think of him to take care me as his promises is too sweet to be true sometime but u know i just a freaking kids whom take promises seriously and bitting it on and nv let go..

So don anyhw say thing or promise me thing as i nv let u off..

Even i let u off my heart don allowed me to...

I freaking hate this feeling..

being all sick and feeling to deprive for ur love..

What had ur love put me through?

O god i pray to u give me more strength to survive..

AWWW...

What happen to me...

Which part of me really unwell?

I couldnt feel which part and known it, all i know is everywhere..

Feelin rather heavy and giddy.

Feeling soo lethargic and puking sensation.

Feeling tired and headace but i couldnt slp.

Throat abit dry up.. i really dont know wats wrong...

I hate hearing ur voice soo near and u yet SO FAR.

I hate spending ANOTHER MOMENT WITH U WHEN I KNW U LEAVIN NEXT SEC..

How could u....

I rather dont talk or dont see at least it wont make it feel worst..

YOUR LOVE TOO GOOD THAT IT SIN, IT TOOO GOOD THAT IT HURT.

i should buck up abit more le..

Maybe love is lik a never ending hole and u dont know where u falling in or fallin to or when it goin to stop but i nv stop myself falling in love with you?

dear diary u understand how i felt aint?

signing off,
R.y