My first post in diary.

Guess simple blog, is for someone simple like me.

Just wanna have a personal diary, maybe not too personal so anyone could read it.

Unless u all have prepare something that might just bring down ur days.

Is my diary,so no tag box is needed. anything could drop me a email but no grantee will has a reply esp the offensives one's.

Oh dear diary,

What is really needed to do in my life?

I tried, at least. I done wrong again i guessed? But still i wanna praise myself. I did that i leave peoples around and things i been doing at a side esp those needed to forget i did it but not all yet.

Meanwhile, clearing up my emotion i did that nothing is allowed to stir me up beside the only one whom wanna guided me in life.

I been looking at the sky, moon, cloud and stars.

The peoples, the things around and the wind that passes by face.

The water i drink, the air i breath and the things trigger my emotion.

Nothings on my mind, just the sound of music.

The keys of piano. The feeling of my fingers running through it. How's the feeling like?

I guess simply beautiful.

I waiting, waiting for something. Maybe happiness?

My definition of happiness is i could take care myself and have someone beside me.

Someone which is peaceful, sweet,loving and caring.

Not self-center, Not boastful and Not hot temper.

Someone could quietly be by my side, could quietly lay by my side looking at sky of clouds saying what could it be looking like.

Someone i grow old with and still say morning with wrinkles on our faces.

Someone to kiss me goodnight and say he love me.

I know i been saying about my happiness to find from another half but not myself.

But so long i could take care my basic needs myself and archive small little dreams of mine, i will be so much contented without anything else.

Life i just want it so simple.

After all is might be the happiness i seem inside me and not how other felt it should be?

Life is uncertain anyway, so i should left it to the pace now. The pace my guardian say wanna to be like.

Maybe who know, i might found something much more?

Life is like a gift. Gift of surprises.

Don't expect, Don't pend and it will come your way with wonders.

When got it accept it with great gratitude but not greed.

got to sign off,

Ry.

P.S. I still believing.